Dream - Jealousy - a motherly life

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July 16

Dream - Jealousy - a motherly life

Had a weird dream last night - having a dream has been a luxury ever since the household number became more than two of us, let alone the weirdness of the dream. I honestly have forgotten most of it, only the love letter part survived. It was a letter written on a very delicate piece of paper, I could even feel the weight of the paper in my dream. The quality of the paper makes you feel you are back to the 19th century England. It was addressed to me, but was not intended to be delivered to me, somehow, in the process (of my dream), it ended up in my hands. It was beautifully written, and amazingly it was in English. As to the content, I guess I'll keep it in my private mind.

So in the morning, still bewildered by this letter, I told weifeng about the dream. "huh" was his only comments, and he responded awkwardly afterward. I whispered to him after a while, "are you upset about my dream?" He said, "no," still uneasy, "I just don't know how to comment or respond." "You couldn't possibly be jealous! It's..... It's just a dream." I wondered and tried to look into his eyes. He shrugged, tried to pull up a smile but failed to reach up to his eyes, "I don't know." That expression is just too familiar for me to ignore. He is unbelievable jealous! but about what? about my dream? .... or my sub-consciousness? and what is my sub-consciousness? is that the passion of love? or the sadness of my mundane life? or an unhappy mother? or a disappointed wife? ....

After a while, I gave up my train of thoughts, and said to myself, "I just need to get out of the house, and have some fun all by myself!"

So, here is the plan - I am going to get out and enjoy the Harry Potter movie, well, another fantasy, again.

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	Ping Chewrote: I think it is suggesting something. Maybe your husband is not paying enough attention to you. I guess he is not jealous but should think about what he can do better. I actually had similar dream before, not just letter part, hoho, like dating with someone. I think it means something. My husband spends little time with me now so I am lonely sometimes so I am not surprised to have this kind of dreams at all. July 17
	Liz VanDerhoofwrote: .....oops..that would be "too", not 'to' in my comments below July 16
	Liz VanDerhoofwrote: Kan.....you are a wonderful Mom and DO need some time for yourself- plan somehow a "me time" at least every 2 weeks- Willie can handle the girls and you can walk on the beach, take a painting class or go shopping or do whatever seems enjoyable....you need a break, the girls do to & they will appreciate "Daddy time". This stay at home mom thing is a real challenge and a actually a blessing (even when it seems otherwise) as long as you still take time to care for yourself and not just everyone else........stop and look at how you can possibly achieve this, then talk it over with Weifeng........sending you hugs! July 16

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